The Healing Power Of Acceptance and Self-Compassion

“Let us visualize a world where all global citizens are loved. Let us embrace a flow of change and send out positive thoughts of peace and acceptance. Please take a moment to honor all walks of life.”
I found this beautiful quote and intention in the Healing Touch Community Newsletter.  I wish I could report to you today that I only felt peace and positive vibes this week, but that was not my experience. 
I felt a rush of anger, despair, and grief around the tweets, news, and unfolding of events since last Friday. There was so much energy in my body; it was overwhelming. I thought about all the things that I could, and should be grateful for. That didn’t help, in fact, it made me even more irritable. 
Acceptance was my only path through it. Not acceptance of what was happening, but acceptance of how ungracefully I was experiencing it. Acceptance of how overwhelmed I was and how hopeless I felt.  Self-compassion for all that I couldn’t seem to deal with. 

After I finally felt that acceptance; I recommitted. I now feel an even deeper commitment to show up, do my best, and stay connected to my highest wisdom in every way possible. To hold space for all that is happening in these crazy times. There are infinite possibilities in this moment. I feel even more grounded, energized, and creative.

I am so grateful for my daily self-reiki treatments, breathwork sessions, and meditation practice. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without these tools.

I know the next few months may be crazy. I will probably feel overwhelmed again. I also know that my renewed commitment to holding a high vibration of acceptance for myself and peace for our world is greater than ever.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time Healing and Breathwork practice in Oakland, California. She is available Monday through Friday for distance healings as we shelter in place. 

510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Feeling Sleepy In Healing Sessions

My Mom began reading my book.

When we talked yesterday, the first question she asked me was, “I was surprised to read that you fall asleep in your healing sessions.”

I think there are going to be a lot of things in this book that may be surprising.

Below is a short quote from the chapter called The Question, where I attempt to describe all the things that I may experience in a healing session:

“…Occasionally I may suddenly feel intensely sleepy. That is an energetic frequency that may last most of the session, or only a few minutes. When that happens, I have to focus on my breath, sit even more upright, and stay balanced until it passes. The sleepy energy has proven to be greatly beneficial for my clients, especially when I stopped resisting it.”

Early in my practice, I felt the sleepy energy much more than I do now. I can’t tell you how upset I used to get when it happened. I totally resisted it and physically tightened up when I felt it. It made me feel like I lacked the stamina, ability, and focus I should have as an Energetic Practitioner. I believed the thought that “This is happening because I am not a better healer; only losers feel sleepy when they are healing.”

One day I realized this sleepy energy was a healing vibration, just like all the more obvious high energy and sparkly frequencies. That day I was tired because I had been up most of the night before, so when the sleepy energy came in, I didn’t fight it. I didn’t resist or contract my body against it. I kind of surrendered into it because I was really tired. It lasted most of the session. It was a little intense holding that space for almost fifty minutes, but I did it.

It was a great healing for my client—one of those profoundly off-the-chart sessions. I realized  ‘sleepy’ energy is a powerful healing energy. Now when it comes, I relax my body into it, deepen my breath to stay focused, and hold it for as long as needed for my client.

I  also realized I spent the first five years of my healing practice resisting an energy that my clients may have needed to rebalance and heal. If I had not been so judgemental, I could have been learning how to hold it as efficiently as possible, rather than trying to get over it.

That being said, I am also always open to the information that I might need more sleep, that I might be run down, or need a few days off.  I always check my grounding before, during, and after the session. My focus is to stay as open to all information that arises in my healings. That information may tell me I need more rest.

I hope that by sharing my experiences in this book, other practitioners will not waste so much time resisting any of the beautiful, restorative, and rebalancing healing energy available to us.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time Healing and Breathwork practice in Oakland, California. She is available Monday through Friday for distance healings as we shelter in place. 

510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

A Business Of Healing By Jeri Lawson

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This feels like an odd week to announce my book. The orange sky, dark days, and fires have added another layer of craziness to our lives. My family in Oregon almost had to evacuate their home. These are crazy times.

So, that being said,  The book I have been writing for the last year is now available.

It is not a book about the euphoria of healing. This book is about my experience as a professional healer over the last twenty-five years.  There are plenty of wonderful and inspiring books written on Reiki, Healing Touch, and other energetic modalities. This book is about issues and paradoxes in my practice that I couldn’t find in books by other healers, things that took me a long time to understand on my own.

It is about how I learned to trust the healing process and let go of everything blocking me from being fully present for my clients. How I learned to hold an energetic space that would allow others to self-heal.

“It took me over twenty years to develop the ability to completely trust the energy. To understand that whatever happens during a healing is, and will always be, perfect. This trust has become an embodied skill. Now fully embedded in my muscle memory, this healing skill is my superpower.

We are all capable of accessing our unique superpower, and it certainly does not need to take twenty years.”

Jeri Lawson has a full-time Healing and Breathwork practice in Oakland, California. She is available Monday through Friday for distance healings as we shelter in place. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Healing: The Space To Open and Integrate Life

Every moment in our ordinary, everyday existence is a potential opening to higher states of consciousness and transformation.

Many of my clients are experiencing profound shifts in their awareness as they care for elderly parents, plant gardens, drive to work, and cook dinner. These shifts can sometimes feel overwhelming, even scary.

Energetic healing sessions are the perfect place to integrate, balance, and embody these new energies and expanded states of consciousness.

Two of my sessions this week felt like deep integration sessions for my clients. I could feel all the vibrations and frequencies in their physical, mental, and emotional bodies coming into harmony underneath my hands – like an orchestra tuning up before a concert.

One client said that her body felt so much more stable and her balance was much better after she got off the table. Another woman reported her heart felt so much more open and relaxed, instead of contracted and fearful.

Stay supported during these “interesting” times. Self-care is not a luxury anymore; it is a crucial part of our life purpose and a vital gift to the world.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Spirituality and Breathwork

This post began as a short description of the spiritual aspects of Clarity Breathwork, and ended up becoming a personal testimonial to my own Breathwork practice:

“For me, Spirituality is not about religion, it is about connecting directly to Spirit, God, Goddess, Sacred Space, The True Self or Oneness. It is the deep, peaceful reconnection of my body, my mind, my life, and my world. A felt sense of just being: having enough, doing enough, right here, right now, in this moment.

My most tangible and profound spiritual experiences are during my Breathwork sessions. I become the Divine Presence where I am connected to everything – past, present, and future.  Being in this ecstatic state, even for only a few minutes at a time, has healed me physically, mentally and emotionally.  Breathwork continues to connect me to this expanded state of consciousness while helping me stay grounded and comfortable in my body.”

 Clarity Breathwork heals our false sense of separation. I love, love, love sharing this extraordinary practice with others.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632  jerilawson@mac.com

Healing And The Deep Cosmic Current

A client asked me:

“Does having one particularly intense or energized session sort of change the energy of the day and make the rest of the sessions more likely to be that way?”

This is an interesting question. When one of my clients has an intense “breakthrough”  healing session, I know there is a very good chance there will be more such sessions in the immediate future.

I revisited a post I wrote in  2012 called Patterns in a Healing Practice. In it, I wrote how clients with the same issues and conditions seem to appear in my healing practice in waves: waves of clients with anxiety and stress, waves of clients with knee concerns, waves of pregnant clients. I noted that being in the healing space on a daily basis gave me a sense of being connected to some kind of deep cosmic current.

This “Deep Cosmic Current” appears to facilitate different healing opportunities at different times, accessing the specific energy needed for those deep transformative healings. Clients that I work with weekly, bi-weekly and monthly will frequently have “breakthrough” sessions at the same time. I sense that there are just certain times when certain healings energies are more available than others.

Could this be because of me? Could my personal energy, mood, biorhythms of the day, be a significant influence?

Over the years there have been days when I had felt “less than perfect” when I arrived at work in the morning, and those days have often been unusually high energy and beneficial for my clients. These are the times I sense my role is not so significant in the healing process. It feels more like the client and I are surfing a universal wave together.

This is another reason regular self-care healing sessions are so valuable. Energy sessions are helpful on any given day, yet there are days when there appears to be more energy available, in which the veil of separation is thinner between spirit and matter, periods in which divine grace is more accessible in the cosmic current.

These are auspicious times to have a healing scheduled. 

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Meditation Is Not What I Thought

This week in my blog I would like to share a significant personal discovery during my month-long meditation retreat last October. A subtle shift in awareness that changed how I experience the world.

I have been studying healing and the nature of consciousness for quite a while now, currently reading books on nonduality and the work of Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle, and Frans Stiene. Also listening to and enjoying the awakening consciousness stories of ordinary people from Buddha at the Gas Pump.

Last week I wrote about my healing practice and what I experience in the healing space during a session. I described the dynamic, ever-evolving, morphing healing state I am in five days a week. My question for the last few years has been: What is the relationship of this healing space to Non-Duality, the True Self, Divine Presence? 

Many teachers and healers I greatly respect have spoken of compassion as a quality of this healing space and this higher consciousness. This is where I felt like I was missing the boat. I was not feeling compassion in the healing space. Here is how I finally defined it for myself in a past post:

Compassion is the ability to hold everything in the moment, in the divine presence of All That Is. It is an energetic healing state.

This compassion is not motivated by desire or ambition to heal others. In fact, it had begun to seem like the more powerful and effective the healing space was becoming for my clients, the less emotionally connected I was to the whole healing process. I do not feel any emotions or desires in the actual healing space. I also had periods when I felt so much less ambitious in my everyday life, which was very uncomfortable. Just being in the world was now requiring a new method of navigation that was confusing. There was much less ego. I was finding this stressful.

So, as I began my month-long meditation retreat in October, my intention was to focus on this question.

There was a Supreme Court issue at the beginning of October that had greatly upset me, so when I sat to meditate my emotional body was quite activated. As I began to meditate, I could feel my energy spiraling and unwinding about five feet all around me, with waves of heat and nausea periodically passing through my physical body. It was very similar to the healing space I held for others, except I was feeling my own energy moving. I would like to note here that my clients very, very rarely feel nauseous.

For the first ten days, it was extremely challenging and physically uncomfortable to sit and meditate. I just wanted to run, to move, to get a drink of water, or find my cell phone and text for help.

Then I began to notice a space underneath all the movement. A quiet space. I focused on that, and it expanded over time and became more encompassing, eventually surrounding everything including my energy field and my body. My nervous system and biofield started settling down, and I experienced the heat and waves of nausea less and less.

This new space was utterly still, like a flat void. I could not even describe it as peaceful, certainly not compassionate, yet there was definitely no stress. It was empty.

After 10 days of emotional turmoil arising and releasing this was a welcome shift. I focused on this space the rest of my meditation retreat, and just let all my questions about healing states and consciousness go.

I have now been back from my retreat and working for over twenty days. The healing space and my healing practice appear to be pretty much the same; different every session and still wonderfully effective for each client.

The prevailing thought running through my brain is that there is nothing to seek anymore. Everything is right here, in this stillness, in this emptiness. My intention now is to stay connected to it.

What was the most surprising, and what I most wanted to share with you, is that even though this deeper space is still experienced as emotionally empty, I returned from the retreat feeling more compassion, joy, love, and clarity in all aspects of my life. I can listen to the daily news with much less resistance. The more I connect with this space the more calmer and more peaceful I am.

You would think that connecting with a state of consciousness that creates more compassion would be experienced as compassionate, yet that’s not how it works for me. The experience of emptiness appears to create more compassion.

Meditation is not what I thought.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Healing Touch For a “Hot Mess”

Last week one of my clients rushed into the healing space (fifteen minutes late) and froze a few steps inside the door. She looked blankly up at the ceiling, let the five bags she had been clenching in her fists drop to the floor, and stated: “I am a hot mess today.”

What a perfect time for a healing.

Once she was on the table, her biofield did feel warm, but her energy felt much more scattered, even chaotic around her head. She fell asleep instantly once I began working and released a lot of built up energy in her lower back and hips. At the end of the treatment, she was so relaxed that it took her a while before she could even get off the table.

She had received a lot of insights during the session; things she knew she had to address in her life that she had been actively resisting. Once she had deeply relaxed and felt balanced, she could consciously begin to process what she had been blocking out and pushing away.

Those blocks had been keeping her from grounding fully for quite a few weeks.

Even though she knew she had to make a lot of changes in her life, she now felt capable of addressing the process. She also booked another session for the following week.

Sometimes being a “hot mess” is the perfect time to get a healing.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork sessions Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632