Rudolf Steiner On New Year’s Day

A Verse for Our Time

We must eradicate from the soul
All fear and terror of what comes towards man out of the future.

We must acquire serenity
In all feelings and sensations about the future.

We must look forward with absolute equanimity
To everything that may come.

And we must think only that whatever comes
Is given to us by a world-directive full of wisdom.

It is part of what we must learn in this age,
namely, to live out of pure trust,
Without any security in existence.

Trust in the ever present help
Of the spiritual world.

Truly, nothing else will do
If our courage is not to fail us.

And let us seek the awakening from within ourselves
Every morning and every evening.

-Rudolf Steiner

When I first read this poem I was inspired. A few days later the thought of eradicating all terror and fear felt impossible, maybe even hopeless. After meditating yesterday, I reread it and found it once again uplifting. For me, this poem is like a post in the ground, letting me know where I am at emotionally in my own internal landscape. 🙂

2020 was my year of recommitment. I recommitted every day to focus on the light, not fight the darkness, and consciously acknowledge all my emotional reactions to the outer world to the best of my ability. I am, again and again, moment to moment, recommitting this year to commitment (that’s a lot of commitment) seeking Rudolf Steiner’s awakening from within myself.

∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork.

510-601-9632

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Words For Healing And Connection

Great Spirit ~ Omnipresence~ Divine ~ Goddess ~ God ~ Oneness ~ All That Is ~ True Self ~ Perpetual Consciousness ~ The Field ~  Infinity ~ Eternity ~ Enlightenment ~ The Absolute ~ Nonduality ~ Infinite Intelligence ~ Source ~ Stillness ~ Heaven ~ Unified Field ~ Bliss ~ Endless Peace ~ Void ~ Reiki ~ Presence ~ Self Realization ~ Kingdom of Heaven ~ Everlasting Peace ~ Cosmic Consciousness ~ Chit ~ Satori Prana ~ Life Force Energy ~ Fluid Living Intelligence ~ Love ~Shakti ~ Chi ~ Prana ~ Universal Energy ~ Love

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork.

510-601-9632

jerilawson@mac.com

Frans Stiene: Our Innate Light

I have watched this video many times. Each time I learn something new.

Enjoy.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. During this time of sheltering-in-place, she is available for Distance Healing Touch and  Reiki sessions. 

510-601-9632  jerilawson@mac.com

Welcome 2020, The Year Of Perfect Vision

This year I recommit even more lovingly to radical self-care. To keep moving toward the light, rather than fight the darkness.

It’s day three of the new year and I am two days behind in my 30-day yoga challenge. I am not going to let that stop me from taking care of myself. I recommit to my yoga practice this morning and validate all the wonderful things I have done in the last three days while I was not doing yoga.

My vision is to fully enjoy every moment of this precious life.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday.

510-601-9632  jerilawson@mac.com

Meditation Is Not What I Thought

This week in my blog I would like to share a significant personal discovery during my month-long meditation retreat last October. A subtle shift in awareness that changed how I experience the world.

I have been studying healing and the nature of consciousness for quite a while now, currently reading books on nonduality and the work of Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle, and Frans Stiene. Also listening to and enjoying the awakening consciousness stories of ordinary people from Buddha at the Gas Pump.

Last week I wrote about my healing practice and what I experience in the healing space during a session. I described the dynamic, ever-evolving, morphing healing state I am in five days a week. My question for the last few years has been: What is the relationship of this healing space to Non-Duality, the True Self, Divine Presence? 

Many teachers and healers I greatly respect have spoken of compassion as a quality of this healing space and this higher consciousness. This is where I felt like I was missing the boat. I was not feeling compassion in the healing space. Here is how I finally defined it for myself in a past post:

Compassion is the ability to hold everything in the moment, in the divine presence of All That Is. It is an energetic healing state.

This compassion is not motivated by desire or ambition to heal others. In fact, it had begun to seem like the more powerful and effective the healing space was becoming for my clients, the less emotionally connected I was to the whole healing process. I do not feel any emotions or desires in the actual healing space. I also had periods when I felt so much less ambitious in my everyday life, which was very uncomfortable. Just being in the world was now requiring a new method of navigation that was confusing. There was much less ego. I was finding this stressful.

So, as I began my month-long meditation retreat in October, my intention was to focus on this question.

There was a Supreme Court issue at the beginning of October that had greatly upset me, so when I sat to meditate my emotional body was quite activated. As I began to meditate, I could feel my energy spiraling and unwinding about five feet all around me, with waves of heat and nausea periodically passing through my physical body. It was very similar to the healing space I held for others, except I was feeling my own energy moving. I would like to note here that my clients very, very rarely feel nauseous.

For the first ten days, it was extremely challenging and physically uncomfortable to sit and meditate. I just wanted to run, to move, to get a drink of water, or find my cell phone and text for help.

Then I began to notice a space underneath all the movement. A quiet space. I focused on that, and it expanded over time and became more encompassing, eventually surrounding everything including my energy field and my body. My nervous system and biofield started settling down, and I experienced the heat and waves of nausea less and less.

This new space was utterly still, like a flat void. I could not even describe it as peaceful, certainly not compassionate, yet there was definitely no stress. It was empty.

After 10 days of emotional turmoil arising and releasing this was a welcome shift. I focused on this space the rest of my meditation retreat, and just let all my questions about healing states and consciousness go.

I have now been back from my retreat and working for over twenty days. The healing space and my healing practice appear to be pretty much the same; different every session and still wonderfully effective for each client.

The prevailing thought running through my brain is that there is nothing to seek anymore. Everything is right here, in this stillness, in this emptiness. My intention now is to stay connected to it.

What was the most surprising, and what I most wanted to share with you, is that even though this deeper space is still experienced as emotionally empty, I returned from the retreat feeling more compassion, joy, love, and clarity in all aspects of my life. I can listen to the daily news with much less resistance. The more I connect with this space the more calmer and more peaceful I am.

You would think that connecting with a state of consciousness that creates more compassion would be experienced as compassionate, yet that’s not how it works for me. The experience of emptiness appears to create more compassion.

Meditation is not what I thought.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Back From The Retreat

 

Have you ever stepped out of your life for a whole month?

Preparing to leave my work and life for such an extended period felt so crazy, so extravagant, and even a bit selfish before I left. Now I realize this was one of the smartest and even the most practical things I have ever done.

How did this come about?

I have been studying consciousness and spirituality in one form or another my whole life. I have read everything I could get my hands on about Enlightenment, Satori, Oneness, Presence, the True Self and Nonduality. My healing practice had made it possible for me to study with many incredibly brilliant healing masters and teachers over the last twenty years. Up until the last month, I was a dedicated spiritual seeker. 😉

Around 2014, after a few “not so great” experiences, I found a meditation teacher that was accessible, kind and moved through the world with incredible grace. Supriya Whittemore is a Universal Ishaya teacher who creates month-long meditation retreats wholly devoted to the direct experience with our Higher Self. That is how I ended up on a month-long Ascension retreat in North Fork, California, meditating for hours at a time in a beautiful and nurturing space.

There is a lot less seeking now, and a lot more just being.

If you have been reading this blog, you also know I am also a big fan of community. For me, a supportive community is vital when you are going through significant consciousness shifts. Being in a community environment with others as deeply committed to their meditation practice was such a gift.

It is impossible to write about all that happened last month. It’s like trying to describe an elephant one inch at a time.

In this first blog post, I will say that the first couple of weeks were incredibly challenging, sparked by the political situation at the beginning of the month. I was completely emotionally overwhelmed just as I was settling in for a month of deep transformational inner work.

How perfect.

To sit through all the emotions that flared up and let my nervous system rebalance and relax was intense. The Ishayas’ Ascension Meditation practice is very easy, simple and natural, but for me letting go of “doing” took a while. The second two weeks were flat-out amazing. The process is very different for everyone.

“there is no cookie-cutter enlightenment”

– Supriya Whittemore

I can’t say that I am fully awake yet, 🙂 but what I can say is that I have come back to my life and my healing practice deeply rested and connected to a simple sweetness of being.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California and is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork sessions Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Prayer and Water

As a healer, I have learned that there are three substances that hold energy well: water, silk, and cotton. After I watched the video above, I was so moved, and much more aware of how connected we are on such a tangible, practical level. I started looking for more water videos and the two below reconfirmed this oneness. Enjoy.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Transmuting Energy and Healing Anxiety

I would like to share a comment made by my friend and Healing Touch Practitioner Vivian Drewis about last week’s post:  Healing: Befriending All Our Emotions.

 

“What a perceptive account of a session. Amazing awareness! I have worked with emotions for many years now doing my own personal work and assisting hundreds of others. I incorrectly thought that we simply release the emotions (actually created in our bodies in very particular organs and glands) once we can identify them and “own” them. What I now understand is that these frequencies do not just disappear. Energy can never be destroyed…as per Einstein. What actually happens is that the negatively charged frequencies are transmuted back to benign elements that we utilize again in our bodies. What a different view on it. It’s like welcoming your child back home.”

I have been thinking about Vivian’s comment all week. This quote describes exactly what I “feel” kinesthetically happening in my client’s energy field during my healing sessions. After they relax and stop resisting emotions such as anxiety and fear, there is almost always the sensation of more life-force energy, or a higher frequency of energy, in their biofield. I thought this was because the contracted, denser energy had released.  Maybe this higher vibrational energy is their emotions being  “transmuted back into benign elements.”

I find this incredibly exciting. It may not change my healing sessions in any way, but it just makes sense. I love it when things make sense. I also like the idea that when I can finally relax and create space around my emotions, it increases my life-force energy.

Thank you, Vivian!

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Back From The Retreat

 

One thing I have learned from this retreat: If I want to step deeper into my life and my work, I have to step out of it for a while.

I have been back from my retreat for five days. This was the most extended amount of time I have taken off from my healing practice in twenty-two years. I meditated for hours at a time, several times a day and I only looked at my phone when I absolutely had to. No Facebook, Instagram, emails, news, calls or texts. I am still amazed at how profoundly clear and relaxed I still feel.

Meditation was the focus of this retreat, with group meals and engaging conversations that created an intimate, supportive community. If you have read my blog, you know that I am a big fan of community, and I find it necessary for doing long-term spiritual and energetic work.

After sleeping for the first three days, I suddenly needed much less sleep. For two nights in a row, I only managed to sleep two hours each night and never felt tired the next day. That was wild. I had heard when you meditate for long periods of time you don’t need as much sleep, but I didn’t believe it until I experienced it. My overall energy level now is significantly higher than before the retreat. Since I am meditating daily for longer periods of time, I hope this continues.

My meditation teacher is  Supriya Whittemore, and she teaches The Ishayas Ascension. Supriya is a gift to this planet. Creating meditations retreats like this one is a  profound service to the world. This is from her website:

“We design our spiritual retreats from the intentions of our participants. What we do is provide the environment for you to recognize and nurture the experience of God within you. We implement a state shift that opens up for the next six months following the retreat. This is achieved by design, the community group dynamic, the practices, and listening for the Life that presents Itself when we discover and navigate together.”

“Listening for the Life that presents Itself”   I love that line.

Berkeley also has a fantastic time and experienced snow for the first time. He also got a lot of meditation time in. 🙂

Berkeley Contemplates Snow

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632

Meditation Retreat

My dog Berkeley and I are leaving today for a meditation retreat, so there will not be any posts on this blog until March 23rd. While I am very, very, VERY excited about this extraordinary opportunity to dive into my meditation practice so deeply, I feel a bit nervous. It’s the same sensation I sometimes become aware of right before I am about to breathe in a Breathwork session. 🙂

Berkeley Doing Yoga

Have a wonderful few weeks, and I will report back!

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, Distance Healings and Clarity Breathwork after March 20th, 2018, 10 am to 6 pm. 510-601-9632