Anxiety and The Healing Practice of Tonglen

There are so many people suffering from anxiety at this time. The pain of anxiety is isolating. I know when I feel the most disheartened over current events, I feel the most alone.

My daily meditative practice is the Universal Ishaya’s Ascension as taught by Neika Supriya Whittemore.  Yet, in the last few weeks, I have found starting my meditation with the practice of Tonglen to be extremely beneficial.

Tonglen connects me with the compassion I feel for others who are having the same experience I am, and in feeling the compassion I have for others I am able to also hold that state of compassion for myself.  Self-compassion is a powerful, comforting healing energy. *

Below is a video (under eight minutes) on the practice of Tonglen by Pema Chodron.

Click here for an informative article from Elephant Journal with several more videos by Pema on Tonglen.   I really like the forty-seven-minute video by Sounds True.  Just listening to Pema explaining how to do Tonglen is a beautiful way to start the morning. 🙂

May you find as much joy and healing from this practice as I have.

*The word compassion is used in different ways by healers and teachers. The state of compassion experienced here is a heartfelt, emotional connection.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in the Temescal Area of Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday.

510-601-9632  jerilawson@mac.com

Clarity Breathwork: Different Varieties Of AMAZING

I always get a little excited when I try to describe a Clarity Breathwork session. It still amazes me how every breathe is so different. I have been breathing privately and in small circles for over thirteen years, and I have never had the same experience twice.

I want to thank the person that took the time to write such a wonderful testimonial, although I have to say, I do believe meditation is worth the effort. 🙂

“Initially I chuckled at Jeri’s enthusiastic promises that the breath session we were about to experience would be the “Best thing that we ever experienced.” I chalked her words up to desire to support participants and assuage any anxiety, along with her genuine love of the work. But by my 4th group session, I knew she spoke from truth!  Every breath session I had with Jeri WAS the most amazing experience I’d ever had. All just different varieties of AMAZING.

Nothing has gotten me out of my head and into a state of trust and connection to LIFE/Universe/DIVINE than her clarity breathwork sessions. I think AMAZING things happen because Jeri is a MASTER at holding a supportive space and allowing miracles to happen. Forget the efforting of meditating or investing money in drug-induced states and just go breathe!”

The  next circle is Sunday, October 27th, 2019 at 10 am to  12:30 pm, at Back to Life Physical Therapy, 403 49th Street, Oakland, California. This is a small intimate circle, limited to six people – a perfect way to experience Breathwork for the first time. You can sign up here: https://backtolife.net/event/clarity-breathwork-circle-6/

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

One Healer’s Thoughts In The Healing Space

As a Reiki and Healing Touch Practitioner, my thoughts are a tangible part of the fluid, living intelligence that is the healing space.

Much of the time there are no thoughts during a session, yet when they appear I have learned that they can give me valuable insights into the nature of my client’s healing process.

I remember when I first realized this. Many years ago I began a healing with a new client, and as soon as I touched her leg I instantly started having thoughts about my own childhood. I started thinking about how much I had longed for a dog when I lived in a place that did not allow pets.

I was very judgemental about thoughts that came up in my sessions, especially when I first began my healing practice. Why was I thinking about myself and my childhood? Why was I not focusing on the healing session, the client, and experiencing the healing compassion of sacred space?

When the session was over, the client shared with me how much she had been longing for a relationship that had just ended.  She had finally realized in the treatment that even though her heart was broken when her boyfriend broke up with her, he was not the partner she really needed in her life. She had released the longing she had been carrying for months. She told me how clear, grounded and grateful she now felt. A great weight had been lifted.

When she said the word longing, I realized that was the exact energy I had noticed when I had thoughts about not having a dog. My thoughts were obviously a part of this mysterious healing process. I was amazed.

Again I understood that if I really wanted to support people with Reiki and Healing Touch, it was time to let go of my judgments and expectations of what should happen during a healing session. I needed to just pay attention to what was actually occurring.

I would like to point out here that even though “I” was thinking personal thoughts, there was no emotional attachment to the thoughts. Even though the energy of longing was appearing in the space, I was not feeling longing. It’s difficult to describe. Kind of like a kinesthetic awareness of a cloud floating by in the sky, except I am both the cloud, and the sky, and the observer all at once.

Sometimes when I begin a session my brain starts firing off like the 4th of July. There is so much stimulating mental energy and monkey mind in the healing space that sometimes I even see little sparks around my eyes. When this happens, I know whoever I am working with is rebalancing some intense mental energy and I feel a direct connection to it. This connection makes it easier for me to hold, channel and just be present in the healing for as long as is necessary.

There have been so many sessions in which my thoughts have been greatly beneficial to the healing. This could be a very long post if I tried to write about them all. Once I let the belief go that I should not have thoughts, everything became so much easier and I could hold a much more powerful healing space for my clients.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Clarity Breathwork: The Practice Of Connected Breathing

This week I thought I would write about my Clarity Breathwork sessions. Several people have recently asked me about Breathwork and several clients have had significant breakthroughs during their sessions in the last few weeks.

Breathwork is amazing.

WHAT IS CLARITY BREATHWORK?

Clarity Breathwork is the practice of circular, connected breathing for healing and attaining higher states of consciousness. In a breathwork session, you lie comfortably and fully clothed on a massage table and breath deeply for fifty minutes. As oxygen fills the body and raises your physical vibration, anything of a lower vibration falls away.

This includes old emotions, past trauma, unconscious beliefs, and habitual physical patterns in your body. I am fully present and at your side throughout the session to guide you through the breathing process. I may ask you questions to help you clarify any emotions, thoughts, and energy that may come up. I may also, with your prior agreement, gently touch your legs and feet to help you stay grounded and focused on your inhale.

Clarity Breathwork is the perfect tool for releasing unconscious imprints held in the mental, emotional, and physical levels of the being. Clarity Breathwork connects you with a higher aspect of yourself so you can let go of shame and blame, and move into self-acceptance, compassion, and love. I have found Breathwork to be an incredibly powerful tool to access and release pain, trauma, and chronic conditions in the physical body.

Are you ready to make some changes, yet don’t even know what those changes are?  Clarity Breathwork may be the perfect way to expand your consciousness and open to new possibilities in your life.

“I feel whole and energized again. I had no idea how much fear and hopelessness I was carrying inside.”

-Client after her Breathwork Session

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Clarity Breathwork sessions Monday through Friday. 

510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Healing: The Space To Open and Integrate Life

Every moment in our ordinary, everyday existence is a potential opening to higher states of consciousness and transformation.

Many of my clients are experiencing profound shifts in their awareness as they care for elderly parents, plant gardens, drive to work, and cook dinner. These shifts can sometimes feel overwhelming, even scary.

Energetic healing sessions are the perfect place to integrate, balance, and embody these new energies and expanded states of consciousness.

Two of my sessions this week felt like deep integration sessions for my clients. I could feel all the vibrations and frequencies in their physical, mental, and emotional bodies coming into harmony underneath my hands – like an orchestra tuning up before a concert.

One client said that her body felt so much more stable and her balance was much better after she got off the table. Another woman reported her heart felt so much more open and relaxed, instead of contracted and fearful.

Stay supported during these “interesting” times. Self-care is not a luxury anymore; it is a crucial part of our life purpose and a vital gift to the world.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Orthopedic Breathwork

Last Monday, I went to my first Physical Therapy appointment for my grade three left acomioclavicular joint dislocation and my fractured right wrist. Even though my Physical Therapist looked like she was twelve years old, she was very present and knowledgeable. I found out grade three is one grade away from surgery, so I guess it was a fairly serious injury.

When she asked me how I was doing, I showed her my range of motion by waving my arms around me like windmills – pretty much 100% in both shoulders. I still can’t put weight on my left shoulder in certain positions or carry anything very heavy with my left arm.

She looked a little startled as I was waving my arms around, and at the end of the appointment said she had never seen anyone heal so fast.  I had been a little worried I was moving my shoulder too much, but so far, so good.

I feel Breathwork is the number one reason I am healing so quickly and have not lost mobility.  I have realized Breathwork is a powerful modality for orthopedic injuries. Whenever my shoulder or body feels tight, I take the first 20 minutes available, do a short breathe, and my whole body releases. It’s fascinating to be experiencing the healing from the inside out so tangibly. There have been days when I find don’t need to breathe, and other days when I do two or three breath sessions.

Reiki treatments and meditations have helped me stay centered emotionally. Having a cast on my arm is claustrophobic for me, and Reiki helps me stay grounded as the panicky feeling moves through.

Last Friday the cast came off, and now I have a splint that I can take on and off. I rented a hot tub right away. I am still in a state of gratitude. The right wrist has some more healing to do, and it will still be a while before I can drive.

Still, I feel so grateful. I have had so much support and healing, and have learned so much.

 

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Healing: Finding the Words

I have been searching for years to find the words that describe what I experience as a healer during a Reiki and Healing Touch session. I started to describe it in this post: A Healer’s Experience Of A Healing Session

I have referred to the space I hold, or connect with, or become, as the Healing Space, the Healing State, sometimes Sacred Space, depending on my mood of the day and who I am working with. Nothing ever felt accurate, or specific enough.

While on my recent forced sabbatical because of a wrist and shoulder injury,  I had time to read. The first book I pulled off my shelf was Adyashanti’s The Way Of Liberation and  I have been carrying it around since. I shouldn’t even say I am reading it, I just look at a few paragraphs and then sit in my chair absorbing. I am absorbing the book.

In this amazing little paperback, Adya writes about the Inner Revolution, the process that happens after the discovery of one’s true nature. He describes this inner revolution as “the birth of a living, fluid intelligence.”

That is exactly what I experience in the continually changing, healing space of my sessions that  is different every time, for every person:

A Living, Fluid Intelligence

Page 37. I recommend that everyone immediately get The Way Of Liberation and start absorbing right away.

I will confess at this point that I have not discovered my True Nature. I am still identifying as a physical body and an ego that likes to describe and name things. It is interesting and a bit confusing to note that somehow I have skipped an important step in Adayshanti’s process of Liberation, the awaking part. Awaking must not be chronological.

I now refer to this healing state as the Fluid Living Intelligence or FLI mode. I hold, become, or go into FLI mode in my energetic sessions.

Healing is a mystery that deepens with every session. This mystery reveals how multi-dimensional and precious our human experience is. My ego finds it very exciting to discover the words that best express it.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Update And Insights

The Perfect Picture For A Post About Pain

In these last two weeks, I’ve had a few insights into the nature of healing and pain.

First, an update on my recovery: My dislocated left shoulder and fractured right wrist look a lot more painful than they are. The physical pain has been quite minimal. I am so fortunate to know how to give myself Reiki and Breathwork sessions.

When I feel fatigued, or discomfort in my body, I stop and do a 20-minute breath session that completely rebalances me mentally and physically. Every night I give myself a Reiki session so I can relax and fall asleep. I have also received Reiki, Breathwork, and massage sessions from some wonderful practitioners.

Over the years in my healing practice, I have also watched so many people completely heal from much worse injuries, so I have a very positive outlook. I know there is no limit to what is possible.

I can’t drive yet, but I can now comb my hair and do the dishes. YES! Progress is sweet, and I never thought I would be so happy to be able to do the dishes. I did overdo it last Sunday when I Marie Kondoed my condo. All that folding was a little much on the wrist, but I did feel a huge personal accomplishment.

This injury has taught me so much. I’ve taken this opportunity of not working, of not being so busy,  to focus on being present for every thought, feeling, and sensation that arises in the moment; listening to my body as I move, stretch, rest and heal. I am sure this has accelerated my recovery.

Now one of the many insights: When the plastic splint was removed last Friday and my permanent cast put on, it was very emotional. I felt panicky, claustrophobic, and trapped. It was scary to know I would not be able to touch my foreman for another twenty-one days. When I briefly saw my wrist it was shocking to see it look so mangled and bruised. I certainly had been feeling better than my wrist looked when it was uncovered.

The doctor I had at Kaiser the day was great. He and his assistant did have to reset the bones again in my wrist, which they said was very common for this type of injury. Unfortunately,  I did not experience the divine intervention that happened with Silas in the ER during the initial reset.

The rest of that Friday, I felt emotionally overwhelmed, and that was the day I felt the most physical sensation and pain all through my body. In fact, that was the only day the pain was an issue. When my emotional body was energetically unstable, I was ultra sensitive to physical pain and prone to less than positive thoughts. It felt so different.

It was so interesting. Even during the worst of it, I was so aware of my heightened sensitivity. The pain was very tangible.

When I feel peaceful and relaxed, the sensations in my body are experienced so differently than when I am emotionally ungrounded. I mean incredibly different; it’s phenomenal.

Of course, I “knew” this before, yet now I really know it. No wonder Reiki, Healing Touch, and Breathwork are so powerful. I am even more passionate about this work, and I am so excited I am back at the office today.

Peace is so healing on every level of our being.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

A Break For Healing

Last week while Berkeley and I were on our morning walk, I tripped and fell. I am not sure how it happened, yet suddenly I was on my back. I knew right away it was serious.

I am now healing a left acomioclavicular joint dislocation (shoulder) and a fractured ulna in my right wrist. Both sides of my upper body currently have limited mobility.

Berkeley watched the whole event from behind and was very distressed until we returned home, and he could sleep off the trauma. I walked the four blocks from my condo to the emergency room and had a very positive experience at Kaiser’s ER. When I arrived, I was the only one there, so everything – examination, X-rays, Motrin, resetting the wrist, more X-rays – moved pretty fast.

I had a remarkable healing in the ER.

It came from Silas, the Physician Assistant when he was resetting my wrist. I will spare you most of the gory details, but my hand was hanging by my fingers about three feet above my body in some kind of bone setting contraption. Silas was squeezing my wrist tightly as he was pulling down (with a great deal of strength) attempting to stretch my hand back into alignment. He had numbed my wrist, of course.

Still, there was a lot of sensation until I felt the energy from his hands come in through my wrist, down my arm, and into my heart, overriding any pain or sensation. I felt so much gratitude, totally unexpected.  He held this bone setting position for several minutes, and I was just in awe — what an extraordinary healer.

I am doing remarkably well this week. Breathwork sessions, meditation, and Self-Reiki treatments have come in handy. It’s amazing, but there is hardly any swelling or pain. 

Everything I have to do takes five times as long as before: dressing, typing, making coffee, and OMG, I still can’t comb my hair! Not being able to brush my hair could quickly turn into an environmental disaster, so I have had to call in help.

Anyway, I will go back to Kaiser later this morning and find out how my wrist and shoulder are healing and maybe get a new cast on my wrist. I am hoping to be back in my office for healings and breathwork by Friday, June 28th, but I am taking it a day at a time.

When it’s time for a break, it’s time for a break.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com

Breathwork And The Radical Commitment To Live With An Open Heart

We are living in interesting times.

Setting the intention to live with an open heart and stay grounded in our daily life is now a radical act.  This requires a fierce commitment, and constant recommitment, to self-care and energetic balance.  When we are energetically aligned, we are in the greatest service to our family, our community, and the planet. We can manifest and act from our highest wisdom. This is the greatest gift we can give the world.

Do you feel safe enough to keep your heart open? Safe in your body, secure in your life? Do you feel emotionally stuck or shut down?

What brings you peace? What resets your nervous system? A walk in the woods? Being with family?  Time alone? Meditation? Liking everything Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez posts on Facebook? Exercise? Massage?  Spending time with your dog? A hot bath?  Do you need a few days in nature?

Do whatever it takes. When we create space in our life to stay connected to our internal goodness, it is much easier to move toward the light, rather than fight the darkness.

Now is the time for radical self-care. One way to dive deep and reconnect with your inner light is a Clarity Breathwork session.

“I feel whole and energized again. I had no idea how much fear and hopelessness I was carrying inside.”

-Client after her Breathwork Session

Breathwork is a gift in these interesting times.

Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632

 jerilawson@mac.com