In these last two weeks, I’ve had a few insights into the nature of healing and pain.
First, an update on my recovery: My dislocated left shoulder and fractured right wrist look a lot more painful than they are. The physical pain has been quite minimal. I am so fortunate to know how to give myself Reiki and Breathwork sessions.
When I feel fatigued, or discomfort in my body, I stop and do a 20-minute breath session that completely rebalances me mentally and physically. Every night I give myself a Reiki session so I can relax and fall asleep. I have also received Reiki, Breathwork, and massage sessions from some wonderful practitioners.
Over the years in my healing practice, I have also watched so many people completely heal from much worse injuries, so I have a very positive outlook. I know there is no limit to what is possible.
I can’t drive yet, but I can now comb my hair and do the dishes. YES! Progress is sweet, and I never thought I would be so happy to be able to do the dishes. I did overdo it last Sunday when I Marie Kondoed my condo. All that folding was a little much on the wrist, but I did feel a huge personal accomplishment.
This injury has taught me so much. I’ve taken this opportunity of not working, of not being so busy, to focus on being present for every thought, feeling, and sensation that arises in the moment; listening to my body as I move, stretch, rest and heal. I am sure this has accelerated my recovery.
Now one of the many insights: When the plastic splint was removed last Friday and my permanent cast put on, it was very emotional. I felt panicky, claustrophobic, and trapped. It was scary to know I would not be able to touch my foreman for another twenty-one days. When I briefly saw my wrist it was shocking to see it look so mangled and bruised. I certainly had been feeling better than my wrist looked when it was uncovered.
The doctor I had at Kaiser the day was great. He and his assistant did have to reset the bones again in my wrist, which they said was very common for this type of injury. Unfortunately, I did not experience the divine intervention that happened with Silas in the ER during the initial reset.
The rest of that Friday, I felt emotionally overwhelmed, and that was the day I felt the most physical sensation and pain all through my body. In fact, that was the only day the pain was an issue. When my emotional body was energetically unstable, I was ultra sensitive to physical pain and prone to less than positive thoughts. It felt so different.
It was so interesting. Even during the worst of it, I was so aware of my heightened sensitivity. The pain was very tangible.
When I feel peaceful and relaxed, the sensations in my body are experienced so differently than when I am emotionally ungrounded. I mean incredibly different; it’s phenomenal.
Of course, I “knew” this before, yet now I really know it. No wonder Reiki, Healing Touch, and Breathwork are so powerful. I am even more passionate about this work, and I am so excited I am back at the office today.
Peace is so healing on every level of our being.
Jeri Lawson has a full-time healing practice in Oakland, California. She is available for Healing Touch, Reiki, and Clarity Breathwork Monday through Friday. 510-601-9632